All my life I had great difficulty trying to understand the underlying nature of my existence. For a long time I looked outside myself for connection, direction and validation. I searched and struggled with this until I could go on no more and felt my spirit was broken. This turned out to be a good thing in the end.
I began painting seriously at a small liberal arts college in Kentucky. That is when I began to heal and learn a visual language that permitted me to have true communication with myself as well as others.
Because of my painting, I have been able to accept the disturbing contradictions and opposites of life itself. I have been able to accept instead of question. It has become my sanctuary.
My work is about receiving the whole package of life; the good as well as the bad as the best of gifts. In embracing all of it, I find a certain beautiful spiritual rest for my soul. The pleasure of listening to great music while I paint has let me experience an opening up. In the music I hear the pain and joy of humanity and what it means to be truly alive. The imagery of musical instruments is significant because of the unspeakably rich passion I hear from them.
Elements of nature are also a common thread; flowers, trees, streams, etc. To me the tiniest things in nature are comforting in this big, ever-changing world. The figures are portrayed in the stick-like forms because I feel we are fragile, almost ephemeral. I seek harmony and depth in the color and formal space of the canvas – a feeling of both darkness and lightness.
Motherhood has enriched my life in such a way I would have not known possible. Painting is the only way to express the gratitude and richness my daughter’s presence has brought to my life.
Horses have always been a large part of my life. As one who stutters I have found the nonverbal communication with them incredibly freeing. They have mystical ancient-feeling souls and far away eyes. They have taught me so much about the unspoken ways of being and I owe them a great deal.
My work is now in extensive private collections across the United States and in Europe. I feel incredibly blessed to be able to paint and I hope I will always reach inside my spirit and become more honest.
A portion of my merchandise goes to the equine rescue organization I really believe in Thoroughbred Aftercare Alliance. TAA inspects and awards grants to approved aftercare organizations that retire, retrain and rehome Thoroughbreds.